『Failure』

Urgh!!!Lose again this time!
Why is has to be this result when it comes to this kinda things...am i that bad in this?
Haiz...I don't wanna care abt it anymre larr...let the fate decide shud i suceed in this kinda things lor...
I just wanna relax for the coming year...so that my heart can heal up...
==...why am I talking lyk a dying person...==
Should I end my life here at this moment?
Well...nobody will cares by the way...Why should'nt I?
Hmmm...I wish I can overcome whatever probs I'm hvin with my friends at the moment...
Cuz...I CAN'T LOSE ANYMRE!!!!
Otherwise...I'll really commit suicide...^^

P.S.Any1 hu cares abt me...when u read tis post...plz dun ask me anything abt it...I wanna rest...pity my heart larr...It can't receive any shock anymre...if not i'll really broke down next time...heart failure...^^

『选择』

我到底有没有做错。。。？
这个选择。。。对我们两个来讲。。。可能是好的。。。
不过。。。对她。。。可能会造成很深的伤害。。。
我该怎么办？放手？还是赌一赌？
运气会站在我这边？还是命运想要耍我？
为什么这个世界有那么多的选择？
为什么我们必须选择？
如果选择后，会造成别人的痛苦。。。
我宁愿被选中的人是她。。。
最近很烦。。。全部事物都好像跟我作对一样。。。
他选择了我。。。不过我没有选择我自己。。。
希望。。。他的选择是对的。。。
好让我以后不必用我现在保留的选择。。。选择离开他。。。

『中秋节。。。快乐吗？』

明天就是中秋节了。。。我去年没能陪你。。。今天。。。还是逃不过。。。
原谅我不能祝福你。。。我的心。。。没办法负荷酱的负担。。。我看不过去。。。
我想。。。你有他。。。就能过每一天了吧。。。你一直说。。。我们的友情不会因为他而有所改变。。。但是。。。看来。。。已经不能挽回了。。。我们的友情。。。已经在摇动了。。。
这不是你害的。。。而是我自己自找麻烦。。。自己拿事情来烦。。。我的心已经不会是完整无缺了。。。要恢复也是不可能的事。。。我们三个好朋友。。。真的要因为男生而感情破裂吗？我不想要酱的结局。。。我不管你们的另一半。。。我只想我们三个回到以前的日子。。。好好的做回好朋友。。。中秋节没什么可以给你。。。只能在这里跟你说：“中秋节快乐”。

~Dying~

I feel like dying...
I wanna kill myself...
Bt sumthing hv been holding me back...
I cant figure out wad is tat...
Bt sumthing...sumthing's been telling me 2 stay alive...
Atleast nt crying infront og any1 else...
Everyday...i feel lyk crying...bt i hv no tears coming out...
Bt 2day...14/7/2009...i cried...reli badly...
Bt i still feel unhapi...
Y m I lyk tat...
Izit sumthing wrong wif my lifestyle or sumthing is wrong wif my attitude?
Shud i chg? Or jz kill myself n remain my old style in my fren's memory...
I h8 me!

-Committed Suicide On 15/7/2009 After Posted In Tis Blog-

『Piano』

My soul is the piano, his words are the keys.
Together we compose, the best of symphonies.

How my soul replays his words of the day.
Like a composer writing a play.

I hear the music, as he strikes a key.
an orchestra, is what I see.

Two soul that share a common ground.
a friendship they have found.

What is a piano, without the player.
It's like a soul, without a desire.

It sits alone in the dark,
waiting for someone to light a spark.

A hope or a desire,
waiting for someone to inspire.

To play a song of the heart,
a song of two souls that will never depart.

GUILTY or INNOCENT

RULE 1: You can only say Guilty or Innocent.

RULE 2: You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks! ( So, if you want an explanation.. Please comment.)

Now, here's what you're supposed to do... And please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes , delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this. Then see what happens.

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Asked someone to marry you?
Innocent

Kissed one of your Facebook friends?
Guilty

Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent

Ever told a lie?
Guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can't have back?
Guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Guilty

Kissed a picture?
Guilty

Slept in until 5 PM?
Innocent

Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

Held a snake?
Innocent

Been suspended from school?
Innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Innocent

Stolen from a store?
Guilty

Been fired from a job?
Innocent

Done something you regret?
Guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Innocent

Kissed in the rain?
Innocent

Sat on a roof top?
Innocent

Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Innocent

Sang in the shower?
Guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Innocent

Shaved your head?
Innocent

Slept naked?
Innocent

Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty

Been in a band?
Guilty

Shot a gun?
Guilty

Donated Blood?
Innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent

Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

Still love someone you shouldn't?
Guilty

Have/had a tattoo?
Guilty

Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Guilty

Been too honest?
Innocent

Ruined a surprise?
Guilty

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can't walk afterwards?
Guilty

Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
Innocent

Joined a pageant?
Innocent

Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Innocent

Had communication with your ex?
Guilty

Dating Someone?
Guilty

Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Innocent

A total stranger treat you by paying your public transportation fare?
Guilty

Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty

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Tags: First 19 people who reads this and Kristy Choy (who tagged me)

『美丽的谎言。。。能否让感情永久？自私的谎言。。。是否也能瞒得长久？』

【UNGU ROXX】

Since every1 r posting abt sports day n our preparation 4 de BIG day...
I suddenly hv de urge 2 write something 2...I regret tat I din stay bak after sports day...i miz all de fun part...I oso wanna say sorry 2 all de ppl tat r stayin overnite de day b4 sports day...I'm a part of de deco team...bt i din stay overnite...instead,I went bak 2 my hse n slp...Bt...sports day is de happiest day 4 me in tis year!!! I cant w8 4 next year's sports day...Btw, I wanna say TQ 2 all my UNGU frens!!!
TQ 4 bringing me joy n happy memories of de year!!! Ur efforts r appreciated!
I luv my UNGU ALIENS FRENS!!! We're de aliens...ungu aliens...we...come frm de same world!!! Ungu United States!!!! I luv U《UNGU》!!!

P.S.I din reli post much things abt our glory UNGU day...paiseh...paiseh...bt...i did link many ungu members...keke...

放弃。。。

我发现。。。学会放弃。。。对我来说可能是一种解脱。。。我想。。。有时在人生中。。。选择放弃。。。也是件好事。。。至少。。。生活比较好。。。不会再被一股又一股的压力给压得喘不过气来。。。学会放弃。。。让我不再在乎某些事情。。。也能让我轻松下来了。。。哇。。。好好哦。。。放弃。。。还真不赖。。。

我们。。。是不是就这样。。。完了。。。？

我们从认识到现在。。。都没有真真的。。。出街一次。。。我们已经缺乏很多的沟通时间。。。我们根本不像现在我们这个身份。。。我们比较像个普通朋友。。。我们都不懂彼此的生活。。。
根本不称得上是了解对方。。。我们彼此都很疑惑。。。犹豫。。。我们根本不适合对方。。。但是。。。我很清楚一点。。。那就是。。。我愿意用无限的时光去了解你。。。只不过。。。你心里要的什么？你自己清楚吗？你要我继续等你的答复等下去？还是。。。我们过回我们自己想要的生活？你不妨告诉我。。。免得。。。我越等越失望。。。越等越累。。。现在结束。。。不代表以后不能回头。。。不过。。。如果现在还是这样的拖泥带水。。。那。。。只会造成我对你的反感。。。而且越来越恨我自己。。。

Autumn Times

Autumn breeze frigidly touches ailing dreadful lives
Harshly darkness quietly surrounds the broken souls
Mellow serenades that once played between hearts
Pathetically have transformed into bitter sad songs

Somewhere beyond the flossy clouds
Cupid has lost his romancing arrows
Plays sad sonorous tunes on his bow
Dedicated to all weepy lonely hearts

Howling chilly wind blows through the mist
Sounds of sorrow spread allover the place
Fuzzy humid air submerges the inner lust
Lives decay slowly as the autumn leaves fall...

~朋友~

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何时，你出现在我眼前?

何时，你成为我生命中最重要的唯一?

何时，我不能没了你？

你，是否也像我一样？

我，是否也是你生命中最重要的唯一?

我们，是否能像现在一样开开心心地永远在一起?

这个答案，你能否实实在在地告诉我吗?

我，会在这里等待你的答复。。。

我不希望等待的回报会是一个我不想要的答复。。。


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